Monday, May 28, 2012

Healthy Heart

The Heart from Wicked to Pure by the Word Of God

There seem to be two types  of extremes folks go to to get healthy. The natural way and the medicinal way. Natural guys use diet and exercise. The medicinal pop pills and do everything they can but not diet and exercise. Spiritually there are similarities.

There are those who naturally wait on the Lord and naturally grow in faith. There are those that can't wait and will hit every conference and seminar and read every book and find themselves medicated on rules and laws of dos and don'ts.

In Acts, chapter 15 the legalists come into town and rip off everyone's joy. Paul and Barnabas are ticked. There was no small discussion. Now in a Jewish culture this means elevated voices and hands flying everywhere. The argument was the ole your not saved because…. There are too many ministries putting heavy yokes around peoples necks to make them Christian especially here in Japan. They want to de-weed the soil prior to planting the seed. They want to make the person worthy of the seed. Jesus never did that. He just spoke the word and scattered the seed. The legalistic guys were of the persuasion to medicate with the law. The Law will make you worthy of Jesus and the Jewish culture. It is interesting to point out that the Law is not a medicine. It is a blood test to see what pulses through your heart. You want to test your spiritual blood. You apply the law and wham you have dangerously high levels of covetousness. You have a lying tongue disease.


The law won't cure you and it won't save you "it just shows you how dirty your face is" says Ravi Zacharias. In the Bible God has already tried our hearts; the diagnosis? Genesis 6:5 thoughts continually of evil. Jeremiah 17:9 the heart is deceitful and desperately wicked. Jesus' own words in Matthew 15:18-20a is "But those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man. For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies: These are [the things] which defile a man:

So as God sees the heart as a sickly diseased thing why do well meaning Christians say quiet frequently, "Oh you just have to trust your heart on that one." Proverbs 28:26 says those who trust in the heart are fools. So if your on an airplane and the engine just quit you have to put on a parachute. The flight attendant hands you a moldy bag that is stained from being stored in the back of the plane. It is fuzzy with mold and smells bad. A bug crawls out. The Attendant says, "Its okay you just need to trust the chute!" WHAT? Give me a new one. Trusting your heart is like that rotten chute. You won't know the result and risk disaster.

The Lord wants to give you a new heart a heart after him. Peter in Acts 15:8 "God knows our hearts."

We need to trust God especially when he says in John 7:38 "He that believes on me, as the scripture hath said, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water." You want to be a healthy Christian. Why do we trust in sick evil wicked things? But if we believe in Jesus and look to him we will out of our belly/ (or heart as another translation says) will flow rivers of living water. Not just a stream of sentimentality. It is a multiplicity of rivers of living water.


When there is death in the water there is strange doctrine or non-scriptural encouragement or even a shadow of the gospel. Those are all poison. The river of living water heart flows the living Christ through the Holy Spirit and showers a deluge of scripture into a persons life. You can pray for a family members' soul for years and nothing will happen. It is like praying for a plant to grow but you don't plant the seed. You say well I have faith that God will work it out. Really?

But if you plant a seed you greatly enhance your chances of seeing Christ work in your lifetime to save that person. Faith in Christ comes by hearing the Word of God. Those who trust their heart are fools and spew poison that leads to eternal death. So be healthy by giving your sick heart to Jesus and allow him to give you the upgrade to a powerful loving heart that is full of rivers of living water.

One of the sayings that Pastor Romaine said that I loved so much was, "Be a garden hose in the hand of a two year old with the Word of God." They will be walking somewhere and not be conscious that they are dousing everything on the way. I love it. Amen

Monday, April 2, 2012

Idle words

Matthew 12:36 "But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment."

Oh man does that include Facebook? 
Top Fuel


Praise God for Noise
Praise God for Noice
There I am in the front row. Our hearts were roaring as loud as the engines of the Dragsters that were fueled by Alcohol. We have waited all night for this moment there the two best guys were racing each other. The smoke of the burning tires filled our nostrils and clothes mixed with the distinct smell of burnt alcohol fuel. The sound was deafening. We tried to talk to each other and our mouths moved but the sound was drowned out by two of the coolest machines to ever grace earth. The idle was awesome. As the lights beat down the rack to green so our hearts raced with total elation this is the moment we have been waiting for. As green came the sound of the engines went to 10 times louder and our ears felt blown. The exhaust fuel of the car closest to us sprayed us like an elephant taking a bath. It stunk. My eyes began to burn instantaneously. I tried to keep them open for the 2 second run down the 1/4 mile track. Screaming so loud we lost our voices. We walked away with smiles from ear to ringing ear with the taste of fuel in our mouths and eyes burning like crazy saying that was the best time ever. As much pain as we endured it was the best time ever. As I was reading the verse above I was taken back to this time where the engines were loud when idling but were 10 times louder when going full-throttle. It got me thinking about our words. Our idle words are loud. People hear our idle words, especially those closest to us. We are not the same people when others are around. We have allowances; the dirty 7 have there place in certain situations. I was always taught in home or out of the home to be that person you're supposed to be to everyone. Yet when we give our idle words freedom to slip out here and there it warms the engines of the heart so that when the time is right and the go light is given our words can be 10 times more painful and violent.

I remember back at the Baptist church one time I went to a basketball game between two rival churches it was a heated exchange with very rough play that turned ugly when a guy was checked in the air so that when he came down he landed on his ankle and broke it. The vocabulary I heard was like those engines at the track-deafening. It was echoing off the gym walls 10 times louder than anything we heard before. The Christian brother was in a lot of pain granted. But I have watched in society as the walls of language have morphed into a degradation to where I have heard some preachers openly cuss in their messages. I have never witnessed this personally but I have been involved with private meeting one on one with men in service but its as if I'm their good buddy and the walls of fake come down and there is a slip here a epitaph there. I always get a sick feeling in my stomach and feel tremendously uncomfortable. Now let me not be Pharisaical here I have been the gutter mouth in my time. I grew up in the church and I left the church cussing better than I did when I went in. Hey we are all sinners right?

Yes! that is true. But we are accountable sinners. Just because you're a sinner doesn't give you license to act like one. I have to mind my words. I have been thinking idle cuss words. The trauma of the disasters in the last year and my failing health have weakened my mind to a point where I have been thinking these words in some situations. The other day I stubbed my toe with a hangnail really good. And with a bit lip I muttered a word. Whoops, did my kids hear that? Whew, that was close. HA HA. But the Lord was speaking to my heart that trauma doesn't give me license to allow slips. Trauma doesn't excuse behavior. So in heaven if I am standing before the Lord giving an account am I going to have the trauma card to trump all the whoops. Hmm. Ecc 7:29 "Lo, this only have I found, that God hath made man upright; but they have sought out many inventions." We always seem to try to rationalize things to a point that we are not looking at things. In God's presence that luxury won't be afforded. We will for the first time in many peoples lives stand there... speechless.

Paul in Romans 14:12 says, "So then every one of us shall give account of himself to God." We can excuse idle words right? Who cares? It's just linguistic phonics that have been assigned meaning by mankind. Right? Hmm, God made language. Remember the tower of Babel? The Jews were instructed to not cuss even in a foreign language. Solomon had much to say about not cursing the king and rich people.

 What do we do? How should we think? For starters preventative measures can be taken by simply following the words of God.
"By him therefore let us offer the sacrifice of praise to God continually, that is, the fruit of [our] lips giving thanks to his name. But to do good and to communicate forget not: for with such sacrifices God is well pleased. Obey them that have the rule over you, and submit yourselves: for they watch for your souls, as they that must give account, that they may do it with joy, and not with grief: for that [is] unprofitable for you. Pray for us: for we trust we have a good conscience, in all things willing to live honestly." Hebrews 13:15-18

1 Peter 4:11 "If any man speak, [let him speak] as the oracles of God; if any man minister, [let him do it] as of the ability which God giveth: that God in all things may be glorified through Jesus Christ, to whom be praise and dominion for ever and ever. Amen."

ECC 10:20 "Curse not the king, no not in thy thought; and curse not the rich in thy bedchamber: for a bird of the air shall carry the voice, and that which hath wings shall tell the matter."

Who is going to hear your thoughts? God! I always wonder if my angel can hear my thoughts and records them down? But as I ask God to forgive me of that thought or those harsh words in Jesus name. The angel gets out his heavenly white out more like Blood out to blot out the recorded sin. That is a happy thought but the blotting out refers to the Book of life not your deeds. No we will account as the Bible says. Not excuses for sin and cheap grace. So many want to ask if I did this an then asked for forgiveness it'd be okay right? NO that is your buddy Satan in your ear like Eve's. It's okay he'll forgive you. Have fun.... God knows our weaknesses and will excuse things because your a product of upbringing or dysfunctional sociology and dysfunctional theology. Ha Ha I want to be in the court room to hear that excuse. Sad part is that will be most everyone's excuse these days. Jesus said of that generation, "Ye are of [your] father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it."

Hey it's on you. Each man must give an account of himself to God in the end. Both Christian and Non-Christian, Now the judgement will be diametrically opposite. The Non-Christian will have a harsher judgement. The Christian will loose rewards and be ashamed. I will have to give an account.

After the death of my son I could have cussed up a storm in an angry rage and that would have been perfectly acceptable by anyone's standards. Really God's too? He did tell Ezekiel to not grieve for his wife Ezekiel 24:15-27? Not say one word. Wow. Can't even cry. I did but I didn't cuss or curse God. I didn't need to. I was walking with God he was holding me up. Your in a battle with shrapnel flying around and as your hit and someone is trying to help you back to base how can you blame him for helping you? He didn't pull the trigger. Man did back in the garden.

After my son died, 10 months later my new born daughter was diagnosed with the same disease. I could have cussed then. Yet I was a broken man. I was a wounded man. I needed God to get me through. I wasn't to be blaming God. Although, after the transplant, I wish I had never did. But I did. My daughter had just received the miracle of life through a heart transplant. She was one of the great joys in my life. We came home and tried to get back to some kind of normalcy. It was fake and awkward. We just went through two of the worst tragedies of our lives and we were pretending its all good. I was inside a raging angry man bottled up. I was exploding releasing pressure here and there. I hated how I belittled my kids and my wife. They didn't deserve that. It was a shame it was wrong it was sin. There was no excuse for that. My anger only grew because I didn't know what to do with it. My career was in the toilet we needed money, my ministry had been hijacked by legalism. I was mad. I wanted to quit ministry. I wanted to run away and hide from all the attention and well wishers. I got tired of telling people with a forced smile, "Yea we're okay." No we weren't. It was so hard.

I went to a men's retreat at CCCM. There God came and lovingly took all my anger and sin as I went forward to lay it all down at his feet. I was ordained by Pastor Chuck Smith a year prior. I had the gift of the Holy Spirit and was in fellowship with him... but here I was needing to repent from all the allowances and excuses that led to bad behavior. The flood of cleansing and the filling of Jesus' Holy Spirit was a miracle and a revival. If your in that place like I was. Maybe it's not the loss of a child but a job, spouse infidelity, your own secret sin that Jesus hasn't taken away from you. You must repent! Jesus said, "Repent for the kingdom of God is at hand." That means take all your stinking idle excuses that allow 10 times more bad behavior and lay them down at the feet of Jesus. This kind of repentance means you love Jesus more than your anger and sin. So many say turn from sin. The direction is what we look at. We hear turn and think streets and life direction. NOT. It is turn the frying pan of sin off in your life and chill with Jesus everyday.

I am in Japan, I was here teaching an English Class when the earthquake hit. We are on the 7th floor. It was massive. It was unbelievably massive. We rallied troops for Christ and started relief efforts. We were just trying to do anything for Jesus to get people help and aide. Teams began to come over from the US to help and there I am getting weaker and weaker each day. What is happening to me. I should be at the peak of my game. By Summers end I had to go and stay in a hospital for 7 weeks. I am diagnosed with the same heart condition as my kids. I am a dead man walking. I have a heart condition that I can literally drop at any time.  Each day is 100% more precious. I thank God for allowing me one more day with my family and the ministry. Each time I have heart troubles and feel dizzy I think this could be it. But here I am. I could go on for many many years like this. But each day is more special. I don't have time to allow my idle words to be cynical and sarcastic giving way to cursing leaders and rich people. Whoops what have I been doing on Facebook? Wow it's like a reoccurring disease yea that is sin and that is why we are given instruction how to behave in the New Testament not excuse behavior.

Your choice. Romans 12:14 "Bless them which persecute you: bless, and curse not."  AND CURSE NOT.

Imagine your joy, if you do what the Bible says and dwell in the praises of the Lord and are filled with scripture and you come to a difficult time where your engine revs up to 10 X the volume and you shout the praises of God. Hallelujah! It don't matter how bad the situation stings or smells or feels. The pain? Who Cares? Praise God we don't have to be ashamed of our excusable words.

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things [are] honest, whatsoever things [are] just, whatsoever things [are] pure, whatsoever things [are] lovely, whatsoever things [are] of good report; if [there be] any virtue, and if [there be] any praise, think on these things. Philippians 4:8

Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.  Psalm 19:14






Wednesday, March 21, 2012

Church Observations

CHURCH
This is a hoot of a place
Observations and Commenting

A man walks into a hospital of sick and dying people he pridefully looks around at the people there suffering some of their own afflictions from an unhealthy lifestyle others from external sickness or disease. The man becomes disgusted and starts to spew and shout at the people, "you are a sorry excuse for humanity. Look at you all lazy and saying 'I'm sick, I'm sick!' What a pathetic excuse for humanity." The police would come and arrest that man and place him under evaluation for a sickness himself.

It is interesting to hear or read preachers who will walk into the churches of our Lord Jesus Christ and look at the sick and dying people racked with sin. Yea the people are repeat offenders they get on the prescription of the Doctor but they stop taking their meds. They come back to get healthy again. And the man seeing this wall to wall hospital with the infirmed and infected will fill his lungs with hatred and spew a rage against the church. You lazy good for nothing Christians. Look at yourselves all caught up in your habits and trapped in sin. The man will even accuse the doctor/pastor, trying to bring healing to the people, of impropriety. You have sinned blah blah blah.  Why is it that these men who rage this way get applauded? They should be arrested and placed under evaluation to see if the fruit of the Holy Spirit is there. If no evidence of grace is found he should be thrown out anathema.
Superheros Geriatric Ward


The Church is not a Solution to Man's Problem
My Pastor Chuck Smith always sees the Church is a hospital. Even those serving are affected by the sickness of self-centeredness, lust, pride, disobedience, and what ever else you can add. He has such a big heart if a Pastor or sheep gets infected and stumbles he'll stand them on their feet again. If we see the church as the solution to humanities problem we will like the man above become disillusioned and angered. We will want to scream at the situations of family and friends getting ripped off by satan and say, "You're getting what you deserve." The Church is a problem but it's not yours and not mine. The Church is where Jesus Christ does his best work. The World is the boat sinking. If we stay in the boat our fate will be the same as the others. If we leap by faith to the rescue ship of Jesus we will be saved. Yet when you get there you are one of the refugees on your way to the kingdom of heaven.

Hospital Workers:
The problem of working in a hospital is sooner or later it gets to you. The constant on going river of humanity and the continually blood letting of Jesus to cover their sin. So sometimes the staff can become cold or calloused. They are numb to the emotions of the patient. Doctors can walk in a rudely just blurt out a remedy and never touch the patient. If a staff member gets infected and stumbles then this causes a panic. This panic leads to germaphobia. If a doctor or nurse get this it goes against their oath to help the sick. In the church, the pastor can get a type of problem-a-phobia, We get sick and tired of hearing about sin in someones life reoccurring. Usually, the infected pastors have verses down pat. They are not moved by the Holy Spirit but by the experience of time. They can diagnose a problem and prescribe 1 Corinthians 10:13, I John 1:9, and a little John 10:10 for pain relieving. They are numb to the emotions and even the outcome. "It's on you buddy" seems to be the sentiment. I like Jesus' painting of Israel, as a bunch of baby chicks and he was the mother hen. He so wants to brood over them and protect them. I see the church too is likewise a deep grievous concern of his. In Revelation, he calls the churches to repent. He doesn't sound angry but matter of fact he states the consequence of sin yet it is his loving grace he is waiting for repentance. Pastors need to understand the firmness of Jesus yet his passion to be in fellowship with the patient.

No Pat Answers: If this = not that

Somehow the Biblical educational institutions of seminaries have painted after years of research, and study, and models, a picture of the perfect church. If you do this then this. It seems too simplistic. Humanity or the Holy Spirit is not the factor for new church planting methodology, but the conditions of a B.F. Skinner model to create the environment where the Christian specimen will be most accommodated. The coffee shop is the most important condition often taking precedence over the Bible. The music must be just right not too sleepy not too rap and not to alternative. The whole plan is a set up for absolute failure in my eyes. It is like creating a spiritual opium factory. You get people hooked on church you get them loving their church you get them dependent to get in church at least once a week. You coffee them up you rock em out you punch em in the arm and say be warm and filled brother. No brokenness for the lost. No weeping for sin but just that feel good sensation that black stormy skies are blue and lemons are roses. That is the church of Satan in my eyes. Now let me step back and say there are churches where the Bible is taught mightily and yet it is okay to have a coffee shop with great lattes. I am just trying to communicate how we have as a body decapitated ourselves from Jesus as the head of our churches and are content to live in a vegetative state of mind with so called experts calling the shots for the direction of the churches. The business men are more interested in numbers and results than repentance and contrition. The specimens become victims and as an addict say, "I'm okay, really,  I'm connected to the church and Pastor X." I pray people in my church don't get dependent like that. I am the one that wants to turn humanity on to Jesus. Our head is Jesus Christ. We are to be healed and directed and ministered to by Jesus. We shouldn't come into church each week all messed up and needing blessings and fillings and repenting. If you are in leadership or a teaching position at your church we should do that at home first before and then be in a better position to help those in need or share with the unsaved.
Conclusion
So the church is a hospital and we who minister to the sick are often the sick ourselves. The church is one amazing institution where the Doctor can do surgery and then take off his gear and get on the table and have others do surgery on him. If one feels he has arrived at perfection he is not looking at Jesus. You can look at others and be better than them that is for sure. But when you look at Jesus he is our standard and we need to continually press on for the higher call. We need to run the race. We need to stay the course. There is no hanging up, no sitting this one out, no docking the boat. Phil; 3:20-21 "For our conversation is in heaven; from whence also we look for the Saviour, the Lord Jesus Christ: Who shall change our vile body, that it may be fashioned like unto his glorious body, according to the working whereby he is able even to subdue all things unto himself."


I pray that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give unto you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of him: The eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the hope of his calling, and what the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints, And what [is] the exceeding greatness of his power to us-ward who believe, according to the working of his mighty power, Which he wrought in Christ, when he raised him from the dead, and set [him] at his own right hand in the heavenly [places] Amen Ephesians 1:17-20

Monday, February 27, 2012

Dan's snack

I know some of you are wonder what do I eat? I thought I'd share one of my snacks with you.

 Jalapeño Cheese Toast
This one is my Jalapeno Cheese Toast. I usually eat a 300 to 400 calorie breakfast. So around 10am I get famished. I usually reach for my low calorie low salt Polish Pickles but I get tired of that or sometimes I enjoy whole lemons. If you take 20 minutes to suck on lemon slices and eat the flesh they can be very satisfying.

Lately, we found at one of our foreign food stores a jar of sliced Jalapeno peppers. So I make this under 200 calorie snack with a piece of toast a slice of cheese and I top it with bell peppers and Jalapeno peppers. Then I toast it a second time melting the cheese. Oh it is so yummy. I almost ate this one before I had the thought to share it with you all.

Cheese I use is a Japanese torokeru or processed cheese... it is 58 calories a slice.
Bread White: 122 Calories a slice
Jalapeño's 27 calories. (although I am using only a table spoon say 1/2) so 14 cal
Bell peppers 30 calories also only a table spoon of one so 15 calories.


  58
122
  14
+15 
199


There are those times when I get the bug and just stand for 5 minutes in front of the fridge. I don't know what I want or am looking for but it is a habit. So to guard against eating harmful or it could be healthy but high calorie I like to have ammunition available in the form of pre-cut items. I take a whole Yellow Bell Pepper and a whole Red Bell Pepper and dice them up and save them in tuperware in the fridge. I'll cut up a whole head of lettuce ready for an instant salad. Our bodies need to burn fuel but do we get the cheap fattening stuff? Like gassing up your car at a generic no name gas station that makes your car engine knock. The same for our bodies. If we can eat satisfying efficiently burning fuels our bodies will do better. If we load it down with additives and salt we will feel bad and in many cases feel the need to eat more because of the deficiency in our body. Sometimes I wish our bodies had a pop up computer screen that could tell us what our body exactly needs. Body is deficient in potassium so eat a 1/2 a banana. But instead I used to reach for Pringles and diet soda. Hope you all enjoy the Jalapeño Cheese Toast and eat well so that we can serve well.

Sunday, February 26, 2012

Why is that?


    WHY IS THAT?

I expected a repair on our Nissan headlight to be a couple of hundred dollars it was 2000 yen (or $24.00). Why is that?

You make a plan to go to a nice restaurant and get all ready and make the trip only to find out it is closed that day. Why is that?

Amazon is known in Japan for shipping things real fast within two days most of the time. The one time you needed it fast it comes in five days. Why is that?

You know how somethings are so odd they can make you wonder why is that?

So many times what we have expected is just the opposite. Whether it is that Murphy's law or just coincidence everyone has times that what they have expected didn't happen. Or something happened that they didn't plan on. I often wonder about things like when the Wise Kings of the East took all that time to come and worship this great king who had his own star, expecting palatial royalties only to find humble accommodations. Still they rejoiced.


Paul standing on the temple steps finally able to give his grand testimony only to have them riot and he gets beaten and thrown in jail. He must have wondered what is going on? This isn't what I planned. God may have shown him the things he must suffer but it appears he had the expectation of a different result.


Jonah sitting on that hill giggling to himself…"Hee Hee Hee, any minute now the fire of God is going to wipe out the Ninevehites. I had better get my marshmallows out." Only to find they don't get wiped out but they repent and turn to God. What? Jo was fuming mad. He was mad at God why? Because he did what he expected which he hoped wouldn't happen. When it did he has that "I knew it." My mortal enemy is saved by my preaching just great he wanted them dead.

So for the Bolinger's on the mission field our coming over here we expected it to not be easy, we'd within a few years plant a church and originally go back home after two years or so. We are passing the or so point and in July we will be going into our 5th year here. Medically, I Dan feel like I am not doing that great. The Doctor says, "Man you're doing great." Mihoko says, "Wow honey you're doing great." I am getting better. I sure don't feel like it. We came to the mission field expecting God to do great things. I didn't expect that would include a sickness.

What's Next:  As Mihoko and I have prayed we have never been ones to sit back to listen to secular common sense. So we are praying forward for a venture of faith. The English school is continuing.  The Church is continuing and people do come wow. God brought us here to do a work to glorify him. How can we not expect God to bless another venture of faith? Pray for us in this venture. We are going to Lord willing rent a facility. This process can take up to a month or more. We will let you know when we know.

It's really funny that as my health goes south, we turn around and press forward with a venture of faith. People expect us to throw in the towel and go back to California. We are committed to the cause of Christ. My limitations are not totally debilitating. I find courage in some people in the field where one husband had a severe stroke and they continue on with the wife fulfilling the call God has put on their lives. Or like another family I know, the dad died and the family remained on the field committed to the mission. The kids all have gone into missions and carry on their Fathers work. We take courage and will continue.

It is so typical of humanity, we expect one thing and they do the opposite. Why is that? Just when we think God is bringing the curtain down on our ministry he opens a wide door. Why is that? God is good,

Friday, February 24, 2012

Eternal Peace or Piece

Jesus said "peace peace everywhere peace. Then the end will come" well here in our town the city hall has declared eternal peace. Knowing Biblical prophecy gives you insight that people can declare anything they want but it is just empty words. Japan is changing. People like the rest of the world are without peace in their soul. There is a restlessness in the hearts of people they want a change but don't know what or how. They can chant all they want "Peace, Peace, Peace.". But they still inside are wrestling a. The Bible says one day that the world will declare a false peace. Then the end wil come. There is no peace why? Because a war is raging from the beginning of time. Mankind is at war with his maker we are all tired of fighting we see the lifestyles of our predecessors and they are all wounded and damaged. The scars run long and deep. Yes we are tired of fighting. There are two ways to win a fight. One beat your opponent or Two give up. Now fighting against God just isn't a fight you can win. I suggest you give up and repent of your sinful self-centered life. Ask Jesus to come in and direct your life. All your dreams all you ambitions all your fighting with family friends and coworkers let it all go and give up. Jesus says to you come unto me all you who are heavy laden and I will give you rest. Jesus gives you peace not as the world gives but a peace that passes understanding The world can't know peace because it doesn't know Jesus. But you can know Jesus simply by bowing your head and pray, "Jesus, I give up. I lay down my life and all throw down my weapons and surrender to you. Forgive me Lord. Come into my life and fill me with your peace. When you do you will discover what others have. God was not mad at you and loves you very much. He didn't want to fight against you that is why he sent Jesus to die in our place to pay our crime debt and give us peace with God. Not just a declared piece, but a true peace that will truly be eternal




Friday, February 10, 2012

Slamming Doors

And while they went to buy, the bridegroom came; 
and they that were ready went in with him to the marriage: and the door was shut. Matthew 25:10

Incident: Laying in bed warm it is 6am and the rumblings of family indicate the day is getting started. There is a door that separates two areas of our Apartment. It has a bent hinge causing it to just barely bump the doorjamb. I have warned the kids many times to not slam the door. Before we moved into this Apt two years ago on our first day looking at the place the wind slammed the door twice which yielded two neighbors to come over and scold us for being Urusai (Noisy). So with this fear constantly in our head I tell the kids don't slam the door. This one morning though there was an unusual amount of slamming. There was loud voices and slamming. When someone has a heart problem the last thing you want to do is startle them and cause heart trauma. As I lay in this warm bed fading in and out of consciousness I am startled awake, SLAM, "Oh those kids." roll over close eyes again. SLAM, "I wish they wouldn't slam the door. SLAM (I have 3 kids) We are going to get in trouble by the neighbors. SLAM (the wife?) Being startled 4 times was all my heart could take anger was the emotion of the day. I shot out of bed opened my bedroom door. I inhale to blast them with both barrels of my teaching on why we should not slam doors. When all of a sudden everything goes blank. The reboot happens while I'm on the floor. My eyes open, I'm hearing my panicked wife calling my name, my oldest son is calling my name they are putting hands on me trying to find out what just happened. My Son was fearful I had just entered eternity. In 10 seconds I stand up say, "Please stop slamming the door." Then I returned to bed for about 20 minutes. This is part of the heart problem now. As the heart is unable to pump normal when an event that causes me to move fast or say I eat a meal and stand up too quickly I get dizzy. That morning with anger being in the mix caused a crumpling to the floor. It was quite humbling. I now have to be careful of really managing my emotions. I have to choose my battles based on how much energy do I have for this. Which has been quite nice as I not having energy usually just walk away and don't say a word. The kids know and are helping to do their part. I must say this our home has been so much more peaceful now. All but the slamming of the door.

Thursday, February 9, 2012

I'm working on a new one be patient

Hey gang,
I have been working on many writings simultaneously and none of them are any good. When I get something worth writing or reading I'll post soon. Enjoy the peace of nothing to read. Maybe I'll write about nothing. Like Seinfelds show that was about nothing.



Friday, January 13, 2012

100 pounds part 2: Things that weigh 100 pounds stolen from other blogs

In celebration of my recent loosing of 100 pounds I wanted to see what on Earth also weighed 100 pounds. So here goes. And to give credit where credit is due. I have appropriated these picts from other sights except those that resemble me.
Me at 225 pounds or 102 kilograms
Me at 325 pounds or 148 kilograms


100 pound black lab
100 Pounds of Dumbells and I stress dumb

100 pound foal/ baby horse for those who don't know what a foal is.
Newborn baby hippo
100 pound prize winning pumpkin

100 pounds of marlin this may actually be like 300 to 400 pounds but it was a cool picture.
100 pounds of Tuna ooo Sushi...someone get the soy sauce.

My beautiful 10 year old daughter Rachel with her uniform and school backpack weights 100 pounds.



Wow wow wow I just can't believe I carried all that weight around with me. Talk about a major wake up call for me. Praise God!
I was that fat with me filling in those 44 size pants. Anyone want a slightly used pair of size 44/30 jeans?
My daughter Jane was having fun with my old pants. She stood in one leg and then lifted the other leg up over her head.


My bug Jane is now a worm or some other thing. Now its time for tickle torture. Hahahahaha

100 pounds of ramdom thoughts

Thoughts on loosing over 100 pounds of weight...

Ho, every one that thirsteth, come ye to the waters, and he that hath no money; come ye, buy, and eat; yea, come, buy wine and milk without money and without price. Wherefore do ye spend money for [that which is] not bread? and your labour for [that which] satisfieth not? hearken diligently unto me, and eat ye [that which is] good, and let your soul delight itself in fatness. Incline your ear, and come unto me: hear, and your soul shall live; Isaiah 55:1-3a





How do we get Fat?
It is amazing as an individual can eat and eat and eat. I ate for pleasure, I ate because of anger. I ate when I worried. I ate when I was depressed. And in between it all I ate just because I love to EAT. I'm a textbook emotional eater. I personally refuse to blame my DNA or upbringing. This was all me eating to live and living to eat. I could blame all those church potlucks throughout the years. I grew up Baptist and we sure love our potlucks, agape feasts, hot dish Sunday. It doesn't matter we will make every excuse for why we were not in church but we never ever missed a potluck. I can remember eating a whole platter of deviled eggs. Or the ice-cream root beer floats. I'm going to make myself hungry. I did learn from my folks a good family night included some popcorn, ice-cream (Best if homemade), and chocolate cake. I'd just take it to the extreme of every night being family night. When I was in high school and the military I smoked. When I got out I quit...or did I? I took up drinking sodas. Big ones, 44 ounces refilled 2 to 4 times a day. I was in a service job repairing garage doors and I ate almost everyday at a burger joint. Never a single that was sissy. It was double or nothing and of course super size.

Who is to blame?
My obesity took 20 years to achieve. It really isn't a proud feat. Although, as the years went by pride was feat achieved as I became a "Big Man" and I wore big man sizes I felt more grown up. I could try to psychologically analyze this to the nth degree but all that would prove would be that I'm not the one to blame. It was genetics, or family upbringing, or associated behaviors from life trauma any of which I could go down that road to achieve nothing but placing the blame somewhere else and affording myself grace to celebrate with a Carl's Jr. Super Star with cheese curly fries and the 44. I would be justifying my behavior based on external circumstances. Oh, I would agree all the fodder to fuel the blame is there. If I wanted to pass the blame I could and I would be in the world's eyes justified. Isn't that what everyone is doing these days? It's not our fault it is my parents and the dysfunctional family syndrome. HA! There has never been in the history of mankind a truly functional family. We all have sin natures that make us all dysfunctional. The Cleavers came close but even there they kept messing things up and the Beav kept having to say, "Gosh, Wally, I'm sorry." I don't want to be like the world. I want to live with a higher standard. I believe in the God of the Bible and his Son Jesus Christ as my God and savior. Through the work of the cross Jesus has dissed the "dys" in dysfunctional.  Now through the power of the Holy Spirit I am able to be forgiven of my mistakes and sin. My pride, my fears, my blatant disregard for the God of Heaven and Earth and to ignore him as my creator is sin. I had to repent. I repented many years ago but in my wealth of learning I have allow situational ethics to direct me more than the Author of the Bible. I have legalized some behaviors and liberalized other. I am saved the whole time and even able to serve God with a certain limitation. But life can become confusing and distorted. I am specifically speaking of my personal relationship to Jesus Christ through the power of the Holy Spirit.


Tying it all together:
In dieting the hospital had me eat an 1800 calorie diet. I had been for 3 months eating a 1000 calorie diet and suffering and I wasn't loosing as much. But on the higher calorie diet I began to loose a lot more. If I go up 300 to 400 on the calories I won't loose at all and
500 over cause a gain. So it is all about balance. Our spiritual life is the same way. We feast on the Word of God it is our sustenance. If we limit ourselves and starve our spirit of the proper amount of spiritual calories then we don't grow and we actually don't loose the fat. If we over eat on the word I know I don't retain much. Our church likes big conferences where all day long 8 to 10 speakers deliver the best meals of the word of God and we in a "All-U-Can-Eat" style overeat on the Word. The next day we feel good but virtually everything is not retained. So the proper balance is between you and the doctor (Lord Jesus Christ). Ask him what is the appropriate amount of spiritual food you need per day and start feasting and getting spiritually healthy.

Dr. Bennett writes, "The Bible is God's nutrient to prevent your Christian life from being spiritually stunted. If you are to grow from the spiritual curiosity of babyhood, to the spiritual stabliity of youth and finally to the spiritual maturity of adulthood, it is imperative that you reveive daily nutrition from God's Word, the Bible....Yes the Word of God will indeed be a source of constant and growing delight when you understand how to digest it as your own spiritual nourishment. Through the prophet Isaiah, God graciously invites all those who have a hunger and thirst for spiritual food to dine with Him from His own banqueting table." 


 Ho, every one that thirsteth, come ye to the waters, and he that hath no money; come ye, buy, and eat; yea, come, buy wine and milk without money and without price. Wherefore do ye spend money for [that which is] not bread? and your labour for [that which] satisfieth not? hearken diligently unto me, and eat ye [that which is] good, and let your soul delight itself in fatness. Incline your ear, and come unto me: hear, and your soul shall live; Isaiah 55:1-3a



If this didn't make sense I apologize as I am tired now and I want to go to bed. I'll fix it later should I feel inspired to do so. As I reread my ramblings it felt a little disjunct and hard to follow. That is why I need more practice at this writing thing.