Giving Up

     Have you ever felt like just giving up? No matter what it is we just can't see the future in this thing and we are struggling and are panicked and worried. The stress is taking years off our life and each day we can mumble around "Why am I doing this?"

My daughter had a very important test. She had been riding the train everyday but with her older brother and younger sister. Today was the day she was going to assume responsibility for herself. Confidence was exuding from her prideful stature. She was going to get up early and then hop on the train all by her self and get to school on time for the test. Well, she hadn't paid attention to the names of the train and the one she boarded blew past her stop as an express train that doesn't stop there. She went into panic mode. But she held it together I'll just get off and go back. Yet she calls us only to cry and say, "I missed the test." "We comfort her and tell to do her best and continue on." She says she is going back to a certain stop and catch another train to her destination. That stop is only one or two stops. But that stop never appeared. The 3rd and 4th stop pass by and she realizes she went to the wrong platform and boarded a train that went even a different direction. She was now in major panic. She calls and is broken and crying I wanna come home. Mom consoles her and tells her what to do. Her crying was blinding and sobbing and she was fearful. She is lost and missed a test but most of all she was humbled that she needed our help. This time she got on a train going in a third direction she is now on her way to Shinjuku Tokyo one of the busiest stops for trains in the world. We start to panic. Mom tells her to get off at the next stop and to wait. She does. Mom rescues her by physically going to get her and take her to school. She still wants to come home for all the embarrassment. But no her job is to go to school. Her job is to face her responsibilities head on and do her best.We are not to give up.

I have been here as I am sure many of you have too. Exasperation leads to absolute desolation and depression and we drop our hands and resign to just give up. "I quit!" In the Bible, we are encouraged by the Apostle Paul to in these times to look unto Jesus.In Hebrews 3:1-2a, the writer encourages, "Therefore, holy brothers and sisters, who share in the heavenly calling, fix your thoughts on Jesus, whom we acknowledge as our apostle and high priest. ² He was faithful to the one who appointed him," 

God will give us trials and will speak to us in these times. We are encouraged in the Bible to over and over again never give up. But to press on reaching for a prize, running to win, looking to the author and finisher of our faith. there are many more themes that come out of the life of faith. 

Hebrews 3:7 " So, as the Holy Spirit says: “Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts as you did in the rebellion during the time of testing in the wilderness,"(NIV) In the NKJV it says, "In the day of trial in the wilderness." The days of trial are plentiful. And the Bible says there will be many. It also says our God is with us and the Holy Spirit is speaking. Look at verse 7. "The Holy Spirit says." That means He is speaking to us. Listen, don't go in your own confidence. But do what is right and obey. If you don't obey the consequences are worse. But it you do obey when we are done with that trial there will be some rest.

This scripture speaks more to the culmination of life and that when we die to self we can enter that rest even while we are in the trial.

Quandry of the world...NO ONE IS LISTENING

What a mess the world is in. We can share our opinions on how we see things. Yet they will chant and shout and won't listen. So one must reason that there are no ears wanting to hear. Jesus said, "He who has ears let him hear." Now we are understanding this more these days. When someone does not want to hear opinion or other view teaching then they will not listen. It is hard to understand this. The Bible also says in the last days the hearts of others will grow cold. It also mentions about there will be those who have a seared consciousness and will commit awful acts against humans and won't think it wrong. We are heading into this time. The U.S.' passive approach is too weak. I look to Israel a roaring lion in the desert and the nations around them fear them and won't touch them. Israel is very diplomatic and responds to any aggression and quashes it. The U.S. always wants to sit down and talk. How man "G" type meetings are there? Those meetings have produced lots of policy and centering world doctrine but it does little to benefit the globe. At least I don't see it.  There we are they don't want to listen and don't have ears to hear so what is all this talking? When Jesus comes back to Earth the Bible says that He will rule with a rod of Iron. I say let's get a head start.

America is in trouble financially, Yet year after year they give billions of dollars to these nations that hate us. I am not seeing the benefit of this. The Bible says the problem is going to get so bad that the nations of the world will have to create a global government. It is already being talked about. We are looking at cashless societies and banking as the norm now. Hand held devices control everything. We now have global access to all the news; including video, minute news feeds, and weather. It is so amazing. We can even view space and the mars rover pictures in almost real time. A human can know the conditions on a planet millions of miles away on a tiny little phone. Yet all of this technology will benefit none of those who won't hear. The Bible is coming true and there are hundreds of prophecies still yet to be fulfilled and we are looking forward to that. Jesus will come again and will make a things new again and will reign and rule in righteousness.

Ben Stein's take on Obama

WE'VE FIGURED HIM OUT!
By Ben Stein

Why was President Barack Obama in such a hurry to get his socialized medicine bill passed? Because he and his cunning circle realize some basic truths:

The American people in their unimaginable kindness and trust voted for a pig in a poke in 2008.
(Pig in a poke means: an offering or deal that is foolishly accepted without being examined first. A poke means sack.)

They wanted so much to believe Barack Obama was somehow better and different from other ultra-leftists that they simply took him on faith.

They ignored his anti-white writings in his books.

They ignored his quiet acceptance of hysterical anti-American diatribes by his minister, Jeremiah Wright.

They ignored his refusal to explain years at a time of his life as a student.

They ignored his ultra-left record as a "community organizer," Illinois state legislator, and Senator.

The American people ignored his total zero of an academic record as a student and teacher, his complete lack of scholarship when he was being touted as a scholar.

Now, the American people are starting to wake up to the truth. Barack Obama is a super likeable super leftist, and not a fan of this country.

The American people have already awakened to the truth that the stimulus bill -- a great idea in theory -- was really an immense bribe to Democrat interest groups, and in no way helped all Americans.

The American people already know that Mr. Obama's plan to lower health costs while expanding coverage and bureaucracy is a myth, a promise of something that never was and never can be --
"a bureaucracy lowering costs in a free society." Either the costs go up or the free society goes away... an historical truth.

These are perilous times. Mrs. Hillary Clinton, our Secretary of State, has given Iran the go-ahead to have nuclear weapons, an unqualified betrayal of the nation. Now, we face a devastating loss of freedom at home in health care. It will be joined by controls on our lives to "protect us" from global warming, itself largely a fraud, if believed to be caused by man. She has also signed on to a Small Firearms Treaty at the U.N. This is a back door gun control move. This is approved by the Senate and a 2nd Amendment majority doesn't exist in the Senate now. It will supersede all U.S. Law and the 2nd Amendment. All citizen possession will be eliminated through confiscation. Just Like Great Britain and Australia .

This was an article I copied off Facebook by Ben Stein. His understanding of things is quite blunt and truthful. As I read this, I felt like a huge curtain has been pulled over the eyes of the American people. The concert of smoke and lights has the people energized for nothing but to execute their own demise. I fear the future of America. It is doomed to fail. The time of the people in control of the power and politics is almost over. It doesn't matter who gets into office there are super powerful people I believe just enjoying pulling the puppet strings. I just thank God that his Word tells me the truth and the future. America is no where to be found in the Bible. It is not even a drop in the bucket of Biblical prophecy. Some will say we are aligned with Israel. No we are not. Others may say we are there in the deep wording and typology. Wishful thinking and good luck with that hope. 

Why would God allow this?

      In 2002 after the 911 attacks, Billy Graham's daughter Anne Graham Lotts was interviewed on the early show by Jane Clayson. Her question to Anne and the following response she made need to be reiterated.

"How could God let something like this happen?" (Regarding the 911 attacks).


Anne's answer: "I believe God is deeply saddened by this, just as we are, but for years we've been telling God to get out of our schools, to get out of our government and to get out of our lives. And being the gentleman He is, I believe He has calmly backed out. How can we expect God to give us His blessing and His protection if we demand He leave us alone?"

Len Goldstein also responded to this question: "In light of recent events...terrorist attack, school shootings, etc. I think it started when Madeleine Murray O'Hare (She was murdered) complained she didn't want prayer in our schools, and we said OK.

Then someone said you better not read the Bible in school...the Bible says do not kill, do not steal, do not lie, and love your neighbor as yourself. And we said OK.

Then Dr. Benjamin Spock said we shouldn't spank our children when they misbehave because their little personalities would be warped and we might damage their self-esteem (Dr. Spock's son committed suicide). We said an expert should know what he is talking about. And we said OK.

Then someone said, let's let our daughters have abortions if they want, and they won't even have to tell their parents. And we said OK.

Then some wise school board member said, since boys will be boys and they're going to do it anyway let's give our sons all the condoms they want so they can have all the fun they desire, and we won't have to tell the parents they got them at school. And we said OK.

Then some of our top elected officials said it doesn't matter what we do in private as long as we do our jobs, Agreeing with them, we said it doesn't matter to me what anyone, including the President does in private, as long as I have a job and the economy is good.

Then someone said lets post online free pornography and call it wholesome entertainment. And we said Ok. For a while there the posting of children's nude pictures was seen as free speech.

Then the networks said hey if it is not prime free television then we can allow all the profanity we desire. Then they added illicit sex.

Then the music companies said it is a form of expression to produce music that encourages rape, drugs, suicide, and satanic themes. And we agreed saying it is just entertainment, it has no adverse affect, nobody takes it seriously, anyway.

Now we are asking ourselves why our children have no conscience? Why don't they know right from wrong? And why doesn't it bother them to kill strangers, classmates and themselves? Probably if we think about it long enough and hard enough we can figure it out." Len Goldstein


A few verses to think about:

Don't be misled—you cannot mock the justice of God. You will always harvest what you plant. Those who live only to satisfy their own sinful nature will harvest decay and death from that sinful nature. But those who live to please the Spirit will harvest everlasting life from the Spirit. They have planted the wind and will harvest the whirlwind. The stalks of grain wither and produce nothing to eat. And even if there is any grain, foreigners will eat it. There will be terrible times in the last days.  People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with such people. Remember, it is sin to know what you ought to do and then not do it. God overlooked people's ignorance about these things in earlier times, but now he commands everyone everywhere to repent of their sins and turn to him. For he has set a day for judging the world with justice by the man he has appointed, and he proved to everyone who this is by raising him from the dead. Jesus Christ is alive and well and ready to come and settle accounts. Are you ready?


Galatians 6:7-8
Hosea 8:7
2 Timothy 3
James 4:17
Acts 17:30-31

The Overgrowth of Overgrowth

This is an opinion meant to poke fun of all the companies, schools, hospitals, homes, government buildings and other places that are showing how "GREEN" they really are by growing Goya or Ivy plants to cover buildings under the guise that it will save on cooling costs and emit oxygen and filter out harmful carbon monoxide. I do not mock and poke fun of the ideology here. I think it is great to do what we can to enhance the environment. But I am not convinced that this was thought through for very long. 
In England they have old homes covered in the green foliage and there is a quaint nuance about it. But the majority of it is covering BRICK buildings. This is important. I have seen over the years Ivy type foliage do serious damage to buildings and frames and in my old home that we lived in for a couple of years in Torrance we had this mystery beast Ivy.

It was a mystery because I lost so many toys in that mess. My favorite hot wheels gone. The greatest jumbo marble that could win every time... ricochet and landed in the lost world. Look as hard as I could it was consumed by the beast. We even had plants consumed by the beast. There was a five foot tall Yucca tree but it was being mummified by the ivy. It was evil and sinister the way the beast slithered up the tree and one day we notice it was almost gone.

The real final straw that happened to cause the beast to cross a line was when it allowed its weapons of defense to get out of control. The bugs were like something from Beetle juice. they were everywhere. That is what hindered most search and rescues for my hot wheels. The wolf spiders were horrendous. Who ever was first out of the house in the morning was met with a series of disgusting spider webs spanning our walkway. I'd sometimes walk half way to school picking webs out of my hair. This was one website that I truly hated. The crossing the line was when my Mother was almost mummified by the webbing while leaving the house to go to church. She felt gross and wanted to change her clothes. You always have that eery thought okay where is the stupid spider?

That week the Ivy was doomed.

In Japan, there is a push by the religion of environMENTALism. It appears under the umbrella of ECOism. It's friendly and green. I stress the mental part. Like a lot of religion the mental state of ones adherent can be quite cultish. What is driving a lot of today's bandwagon knee-jerk reaction is fear. Fear of a negative label. The other thing is greed.

Negative labeling is the weapon of choice for humanity gone wild without morality. When people don't like something they just shoot it with a negative label. Intolerant is like the "S" word in this religion. Fanatic is another one but not too bad. The worst is the big "F" word of "Fundamentalist Evangelical Christian!" This tactic has been around since the Garden of Eden. Satan used it to label God in a way that deceived Eve into doing something that, had she truly thought it through, may have never done it. The believers in Jesus during Acts were labeled as "Christians". Meant to be a derogatory word but wound up becoming a word of honor. I think though we have come full circle and once again are being labeled as a negative thing to be a Christian.

When a sports star commits a sin in the eyes of the world. Don't get me started on the hypocrisy here in this religion. They all know the person is sinning but as long as no one says anything there is the "No harm no foul" commandment. Yet when harm is cried then the rule kicks in. Those associated with sponsoring such a villain will be labeled as well and banned and punished for their support of such said sin. As if a corporate sponsor knew anything about their life or cared. But as in many cases it is the sponsors that egg on bad behavior to bring about a profit. Their loud voices booming the mantra and goose stepping with the mainstream media condemning the star, "We are shocked and disappointing at this turn of events. Though we are neutral on this we must remove ourselves from the negative press." This loyal act causes stock prices to climb as the ECOist applaud and cheer for the alleged martyrdom. Which leads into point two that the driving force of today's corporate mentalism is greed.

The greed part is that they have discovered there is money in green mental-ness. The companies are getting people to throw away perfectly good products for newer ones. to prove to be a dutiful follower and show loyalty by diving in financially and showing you're one of the faithful. The hybrid car craze, or the 100% recyclable products, or the Eco friendly AC units all are part of the greed driven mental state. Now I am not saying a hybrid car is bad. It's great. The car company though is deceitful in its representation of facts and qualifications. Like they take a car in a class and change out the seats for light cheap ones. They take the tires off and put on smaller ones and lower the profile and change the weight. Then they get a better rating according to the guidelines set to sell the normal car as a special ECO car. They can take an over taxed car and push it as Eco and you fell like your getting a discount but your getting ripped off from the cool ride you could have had. The 100% recyclable products deal is good. But aren't all products, if you really tried, recyclable? Some electronics are not I know. But this is a ploy to toss your bad not real 100% recyclable product in the trash thus creating more trash and then selling you a cheap item that jambs and slurps recyclable ink like no tomorrow. The recyclablity of a product rests solely on the consumer to take responsibility to properly trash can the item. If you trash can a 100% recyclable product guess what? It ain't getting recycled. The AC units are really a joke. You throw away a good machine for a machine that makes you feel good. but then you're told to not run it at full power. You must set it to maximize the ECO features so that it cools less and saves energy. You sweat your brains out feeling good about how cool you are with your piece of junk. If you want to have true eco AC. Just open your windows it'll probably be cooler and cheaper.

So back to the reason why I am writing this. The companies, schools, hospitals, homes, government buildings and other places that are now reacting to pressure to conform for the new religion are not thinking about things. I forsee a Logan's Run type future where all buildings are overgrown with overgrowth. In the "Jungle Book" King Louey's palace was covered in foliage. In the secret garden the gate was overgrown. The garden was a secret because no one could find the entrance.

The future in japan is going to be a tremendous amount of websites that need to be deleted. The spiders that spin off from this will entrap society in a web of frustration and wondering where that stupid spider is at. The other frustration is people won't want to go to a place covered by a beast that will eat their money and gross them out, and cause hair raising problems.

I really wish the people of Japan would think through their Evironmentalism. They are going to be like a lot of blind cultists who are groping for a door of opportunity only to find themselves locked out and consumed by the beast. That or they will be doing the spider web dance of wanting to be free.

END OF CIVILIZATION

Below is an article from CNN. The article is about a man who played a role playing game for ten years creating civilizations and growing them into nations. The outcome....is quite Biblical. There is no hope for mankind.  He says in regards to the nations the only peace solution is to wipe out others, "It is this that perpetuates the war ad infinitum." 

He also said the only Government that was plausible was a communistic one. Democracy failed to act when needed to. Like a game of Chess, this man played for 10 years and it is quite a fascinating read. There is one scenario that he did not think of and that was God intervening in mankind's fate. In Matthew, Jesus says, "And except those days should be shortened, there should no flesh be saved: but for the elect's sake those days shall be shortened." I can't wait, yet I fear how much war and death must we endure until the Christ returns to save mankind from himself.
 
(CNN) -- Can you imagine playing a single video game for 10 years?

One man did. And it helped him imagine something else: a bleak, war-ravaged future version of Earth.

A member of the social news website Reddit who goes by the name Lycerius posted his results from a decade-long game of "Civilization II," a turn-based strategy games in which players build their own society. His epic struggle pushed the game to its limits, further than developers ever imagined or planned for.

The "Civilization" franchise is a series of strategy games that allow players to grow small tribes into large, sprawling nations. Players can manage resources, build armies and engage in diplomacy in an effort to grow their civilization into a world leader.

"Civilization II" was released in 1996. But when the third version of the game was released in 2001, Lycerius said, he was already deep into his current game and wanted to see how far he could go.

He doesn't play every day but returns to what he called a "hellish nightmare of suffering and devastation" when he has some free time.

Now in the year 3991, his world is down to three super-nations, each competing for dwindling resources, and a planet left scarred by multiple nuclear wars. His Celts are locked in a 1,700-year war with the Vikings and the Americans. All other nations have been destroyed or absorbed.

"Peace seems to be impossible. Every time a cease fire is signed, the Vikings will surprise attack me or the Americans the very next turn, often with nuclear weapons," Lycerius wrote on Reddit. "Even when the U.N forces a peace treaty. So I can only assume that peace will come only when they're wiped out. It is this that perpetuates the war ad infinitum."

Because of the continual fighting, he was forced to abandon his democracy and adopt a communist state, because his Senate kept overruling him when he wanted to declare war. Also, his cities are filled with starving people (90% of his world's population died from nuclear annihilation or famine from global warming) because, he says, he has to keep building war machines to sustain his combat efforts.

"So you want a granary so you can eat? Sorry; I have to build another tank instead. Maybe next time," he wrote.

Constant nuclear bombardment and sabotage have melted the world's ice caps over and over again, resulting in the flooding of all terrain other than mountains. He said his world is full of swamp (which is useless for farming) and irradiated lands.

"Civilization" franchise creator Sid Meier said developers never even thought about someone taking a "Civ" game this far into the future.

"There's no way we could have tested for this, so it was a surprise to us," Meier said. "I can't say that we ever thought anyone would play a game of 'Civ' for that long. It's exciting that a fan of the series would dedicate 10 years to playing one continuous game."

Before you think Lycerius is just an unfeeling ruler, he said he does want to find a way to end the longstanding war.

"My goal for the next few years is to try and end the war and thus use the engineers to clear swamps and fallout so that farming may resume. I want to rebuild the world. But I'm not sure how. "

He may not be sure how, but Jesus knows exactly what he will do. It is all laid out in the pages of the Bible. It is funny how generals and world leaders will do scenario play on the outcomes of wars and political take overs. They are shocked when they discovered the outcome they had been thinking of were already written about in the Word of God. 

 As we were leaving a little girl came up and told Jane in Japanese, "Tell your papa thank you that was so much fun." Somehow to hear that made it even more rewarding. Proverbs 6:30 [Men] do not despise a thief, if he steal to satisfy his soul when he is hungry; Jane and I went to the Apartment park to make some balloon creations. Soon thirty + kids swarmed around us. It was crazy. I had 4 pumps and 150 balloons when the melee was over we got our 4 pumps back. I kind of felt ripped off as they took the balloons. Yet, It was a blast. I was able to make a few animals and then tell a few how. The soccer team of boys had only an interest in making things that are embarrassing. I could have stopped them with my loud bark. I could have risen up and snatched back my pumps and balloons. But the Lord spoke to my heart. These little ones are hungry for a touch. Just like in the gospels where Jesus was teaching and the kids came up for a touch. Jesus didn't check to see if they washed their hands. He said, "let them come." So, to sit there and just allow the flow and by the end, there were kids touching me like they would a friend or their papa. I know this blessed some kids so much. Some kids showed up late so we will have to go and get more balloons.  Kids in Japan need lots of love. I know everywhere in the world its the same. For me being here I just have such a desire to point them to the one who will love them all their life. They weren't stealing the balloons in my eyes they are hungry for attention, love, joy, and laughter but also instruction. Seeing them as hungry for Jesus affords me the peace to not despise them but love them even more for Jesus sake.

Healthy Heart

The Heart from Wicked to Pure by the Word Of God

There seem to be two types  of extremes folks go to to get healthy. The natural way and the medicinal way. Natural guys use diet and exercise. The medicinal pop pills and do everything they can but not diet and exercise. Spiritually there are similarities.

There are those who naturally wait on the Lord and naturally grow in faith. There are those that can't wait and will hit every conference and seminar and read every book and find themselves medicated on rules and laws of dos and don'ts.

In Acts, chapter 15 the legalists come into town and rip off everyone's joy. Paul and Barnabas are ticked. There was no small discussion. Now in a Jewish culture this means elevated voices and hands flying everywhere. The argument was the ole your not saved because…. There are too many ministries putting heavy yokes around peoples necks to make them Christian especially here in Japan. They want to de-weed the soil prior to planting the seed. They want to make the person worthy of the seed. Jesus never did that. He just spoke the word and scattered the seed. The legalistic guys were of the persuasion to medicate with the law. The Law will make you worthy of Jesus and the Jewish culture. It is interesting to point out that the Law is not a medicine. It is a blood test to see what pulses through your heart. You want to test your spiritual blood. You apply the law and wham you have dangerously high levels of covetousness. You have a lying tongue disease.


The law won't cure you and it won't save you "it just shows you how dirty your face is" says Ravi Zacharias. In the Bible God has already tried our hearts; the diagnosis? Genesis 6:5 thoughts continually of evil. Jeremiah 17:9 the heart is deceitful and desperately wicked. Jesus' own words in Matthew 15:18-20a is "But those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man. For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies: These are [the things] which defile a man:

So as God sees the heart as a sickly diseased thing why do well meaning Christians say quiet frequently, "Oh you just have to trust your heart on that one." Proverbs 28:26 says those who trust in the heart are fools. So if your on an airplane and the engine just quit you have to put on a parachute. The flight attendant hands you a moldy bag that is stained from being stored in the back of the plane. It is fuzzy with mold and smells bad. A bug crawls out. The Attendant says, "Its okay you just need to trust the chute!" WHAT? Give me a new one. Trusting your heart is like that rotten chute. You won't know the result and risk disaster.

The Lord wants to give you a new heart a heart after him. Peter in Acts 15:8 "God knows our hearts."

We need to trust God especially when he says in John 7:38 "He that believes on me, as the scripture hath said, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water." You want to be a healthy Christian. Why do we trust in sick evil wicked things? But if we believe in Jesus and look to him we will out of our belly/ (or heart as another translation says) will flow rivers of living water. Not just a stream of sentimentality. It is a multiplicity of rivers of living water.


When there is death in the water there is strange doctrine or non-scriptural encouragement or even a shadow of the gospel. Those are all poison. The river of living water heart flows the living Christ through the Holy Spirit and showers a deluge of scripture into a persons life. You can pray for a family members' soul for years and nothing will happen. It is like praying for a plant to grow but you don't plant the seed. You say well I have faith that God will work it out. Really?

But if you plant a seed you greatly enhance your chances of seeing Christ work in your lifetime to save that person. Faith in Christ comes by hearing the Word of God. Those who trust their heart are fools and spew poison that leads to eternal death. So be healthy by giving your sick heart to Jesus and allow him to give you the upgrade to a powerful loving heart that is full of rivers of living water.

One of the sayings that Pastor Romaine said that I loved so much was, "Be a garden hose in the hand of a two year old with the Word of God." They will be walking somewhere and not be conscious that they are dousing everything on the way. I love it. Amen

Idle words

Matthew 12:36 "But I say unto you, That every idle word that men shall speak, they shall give account thereof in the day of judgment."

Oh man does that include Facebook? 

Top Fuel

Praise God for Noise

Praise God for Noice

There I am in the front row. Our hearts were roaring as loud as the engines of the Dragsters that were fueled by Alcohol. We have waited all night for this moment there the two best guys were racing each other. The smoke of the burning tires filled our nostrils and clothes mixed with the distinct smell of burnt alcohol fuel. The sound was deafening. We tried to talk to each other and our mouths moved but the sound was drowned out by two of the coolest machines to ever grace earth. The idle was awesome. As the lights beat down the rack to green so our hearts raced with total elation this is the moment we have been waiting for. As green came the sound of the engines went to 10 times louder and our ears felt blown. The exhaust fuel of the car closest to us sprayed us like an elephant taking a bath. It stunk. My eyes began to burn instantaneously. I tried to keep them open for the 2 second run down the 1/4 mile track. Screaming so loud we lost our voices. We walked away with smiles from ear to ringing ear with the taste of fuel in our mouths and eyes burning like crazy saying that was the best time ever. As much pain as we endured it was the best time ever. As I was reading the verse above I was taken back to this time where the engines were loud when idling but were 10 times louder when going full-throttle. It got me thinking about our words. Our idle words are loud. People hear our idle words, especially those closest to us. We are not the same people when others are around. We have allowances; the dirty 7 have there place in certain situations. I was always taught in home or out of the home to be that person you're supposed to be to everyone. Yet when we give our idle words freedom to slip out here and there it warms the engines of the heart so that when the time is right and the go light is given our words can be 10 times more painful and violent.

I remember back at the Baptist church one time I went to a basketball game between two rival churches it was a heated exchange with very rough play that turned ugly when a guy was checked in the air so that when he came down he landed on his ankle and broke it. The vocabulary I heard was like those engines at the track-deafening. It was echoing off the gym walls 10 times louder than anything we heard before. The Christian brother was in a lot of pain granted. But I have watched in society as the walls of language have morphed into a degradation to where I have heard some preachers openly cuss in their messages. I have never witnessed this personally but I have been involved with private meeting one on one with men in service but its as if I'm their good buddy and the walls of fake come down and there is a slip here a epitaph there. I always get a sick feeling in my stomach and feel tremendously uncomfortable. Now let me not be Pharisaical here I have been the gutter mouth in my time. I grew up in the church and I left the church cussing better than I did when I went in. Hey we are all sinners right?

Yes! that is true. But we are accountable sinners. Just because you're a sinner doesn't give you license to act like one. I have to mind my words. I have been thinking idle cuss words. The trauma of the disasters in the last year and my failing health have weakened my mind to a point where I have been thinking these words in some situations. The other day I stubbed my toe with a hangnail really good. And with a bit lip I muttered a word. Whoops, did my kids hear that? Whew, that was close. HA HA. But the Lord was speaking to my heart that trauma doesn't give me license to allow slips. Trauma doesn't excuse behavior. So in heaven if I am standing before the Lord giving an account am I going to have the trauma card to trump all the whoops. Hmm. Ecc 7:29 "Lo, this only have I found, that God hath made man upright; but they have sought out many inventions." We always seem to try to rationalize things to a point that we are not looking at things. In God's presence that luxury won't be afforded. We will for the first time in many peoples lives stand there... speechless.

Paul in Romans 14:12 says, "So then every one of us shall give account of himself to God." We can excuse idle words right? Who cares? It's just linguistic phonics that have been assigned meaning by mankind. Right? Hmm, God made language. Remember the tower of Babel? The Jews were instructed to not cuss even in a foreign language. Solomon had much to say about not cursing the king and rich people.

 What do we do? How should we think? For starters preventative measures can be taken by simply following the words of God.
"By him therefore let us offer the sacrifice of praise to God continually, that is, the fruit of [our] lips giving thanks to his name. But to do good and to communicate forget not: for with such sacrifices God is well pleased. Obey them that have the rule over you, and submit yourselves: for they watch for your souls, as they that must give account, that they may do it with joy, and not with grief: for that [is] unprofitable for you. Pray for us: for we trust we have a good conscience, in all things willing to live honestly." Hebrews 13:15-18

1 Peter 4:11 "If any man speak, [let him speak] as the oracles of God; if any man minister, [let him do it] as of the ability which God giveth: that God in all things may be glorified through Jesus Christ, to whom be praise and dominion for ever and ever. Amen."

ECC 10:20 "Curse not the king, no not in thy thought; and curse not the rich in thy bedchamber: for a bird of the air shall carry the voice, and that which hath wings shall tell the matter."

Who is going to hear your thoughts? God! I always wonder if my angel can hear my thoughts and records them down? But as I ask God to forgive me of that thought or those harsh words in Jesus name. The angel gets out his heavenly white out more like Blood out to blot out the recorded sin. That is a happy thought but the blotting out refers to the Book of life not your deeds. No we will account as the Bible says. Not excuses for sin and cheap grace. So many want to ask if I did this an then asked for forgiveness it'd be okay right? NO that is your buddy Satan in your ear like Eve's. It's okay he'll forgive you. Have fun.... God knows our weaknesses and will excuse things because your a product of upbringing or dysfunctional sociology and dysfunctional theology. Ha Ha I want to be in the court room to hear that excuse. Sad part is that will be most everyone's excuse these days. Jesus said of that generation, "Ye are of [your] father the devil, and the lusts of your father ye will do. He was a murderer from the beginning, and abode not in the truth, because there is no truth in him. When he speaketh a lie, he speaketh of his own: for he is a liar, and the father of it."

Hey it's on you. Each man must give an account of himself to God in the end. Both Christian and Non-Christian, Now the judgement will be diametrically opposite. The Non-Christian will have a harsher judgement. The Christian will loose rewards and be ashamed. I will have to give an account.

After the death of my son I could have cussed up a storm in an angry rage and that would have been perfectly acceptable by anyone's standards. Really God's too? He did tell Ezekiel to not grieve for his wife Ezekiel 24:15-27? Not say one word. Wow. Can't even cry. I did but I didn't cuss or curse God. I didn't need to. I was walking with God he was holding me up. Your in a battle with shrapnel flying around and as your hit and someone is trying to help you back to base how can you blame him for helping you? He didn't pull the trigger. Man did back in the garden.

After my son died, 10 months later my new born daughter was diagnosed with the same disease. I could have cussed then. Yet I was a broken man. I was a wounded man. I needed God to get me through. I wasn't to be blaming God. Although, after the transplant, I wish I had never did. But I did. My daughter had just received the miracle of life through a heart transplant. She was one of the great joys in my life. We came home and tried to get back to some kind of normalcy. It was fake and awkward. We just went through two of the worst tragedies of our lives and we were pretending its all good. I was inside a raging angry man bottled up. I was exploding releasing pressure here and there. I hated how I belittled my kids and my wife. They didn't deserve that. It was a shame it was wrong it was sin. There was no excuse for that. My anger only grew because I didn't know what to do with it. My career was in the toilet we needed money, my ministry had been hijacked by legalism. I was mad. I wanted to quit ministry. I wanted to run away and hide from all the attention and well wishers. I got tired of telling people with a forced smile, "Yea we're okay." No we weren't. It was so hard.

I went to a men's retreat at CCCM. There God came and lovingly took all my anger and sin as I went forward to lay it all down at his feet. I was ordained by Pastor Chuck Smith a year prior. I had the gift of the Holy Spirit and was in fellowship with him... but here I was needing to repent from all the allowances and excuses that led to bad behavior. The flood of cleansing and the filling of Jesus' Holy Spirit was a miracle and a revival. If your in that place like I was. Maybe it's not the loss of a child but a job, spouse infidelity, your own secret sin that Jesus hasn't taken away from you. You must repent! Jesus said, "Repent for the kingdom of God is at hand." That means take all your stinking idle excuses that allow 10 times more bad behavior and lay them down at the feet of Jesus. This kind of repentance means you love Jesus more than your anger and sin. So many say turn from sin. The direction is what we look at. We hear turn and think streets and life direction. NOT. It is turn the frying pan of sin off in your life and chill with Jesus everyday.

I am in Japan, I was here teaching an English Class when the earthquake hit. We are on the 7th floor. It was massive. It was unbelievably massive. We rallied troops for Christ and started relief efforts. We were just trying to do anything for Jesus to get people help and aide. Teams began to come over from the US to help and there I am getting weaker and weaker each day. What is happening to me. I should be at the peak of my game. By Summers end I had to go and stay in a hospital for 7 weeks. I am diagnosed with the same heart condition as my kids. I am a dead man walking. I have a heart condition that I can literally drop at any time.  Each day is 100% more precious. I thank God for allowing me one more day with my family and the ministry. Each time I have heart troubles and feel dizzy I think this could be it. But here I am. I could go on for many many years like this. But each day is more special. I don't have time to allow my idle words to be cynical and sarcastic giving way to cursing leaders and rich people. Whoops what have I been doing on Facebook? Wow it's like a reoccurring disease yea that is sin and that is why we are given instruction how to behave in the New Testament not excuse behavior.

Your choice. Romans 12:14 "Bless them which persecute you: bless, and curse not."  AND CURSE NOT.

Imagine your joy, if you do what the Bible says and dwell in the praises of the Lord and are filled with scripture and you come to a difficult time where your engine revs up to 10 X the volume and you shout the praises of God. Hallelujah! It don't matter how bad the situation stings or smells or feels. The pain? Who Cares? Praise God we don't have to be ashamed of our excusable words.

Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things [are] honest, whatsoever things [are] just, whatsoever things [are] pure, whatsoever things [are] lovely, whatsoever things [are] of good report; if [there be] any virtue, and if [there be] any praise, think on these things. Philippians 4:8

Let the words of my mouth, and the meditation of my heart, be acceptable in thy sight, O LORD, my strength, and my redeemer.  Psalm 19:14

Church Observations

CHURCH

This is a hoot of a place

Observations and Commenting

A man walks into a hospital of sick and dying people he pridefully looks around at the people there suffering some of their own afflictions from an unhealthy lifestyle others from external sickness or disease. The man becomes disgusted and starts to spew and shout at the people, "you are a sorry excuse for humanity. Look at you all lazy and saying 'I'm sick, I'm sick!' What a pathetic excuse for humanity." The police would come and arrest that man and place him under evaluation for a sickness himself.

It is interesting to hear or read preachers who will walk into the churches of our Lord Jesus Christ and look at the sick and dying people racked with sin. Yea the people are repeat offenders they get on the prescription of the Doctor but they stop taking their meds. They come back to get healthy again. And the man seeing this wall to wall hospital with the infirmed and infected will fill his lungs with hatred and spew a rage against the church. You lazy good for nothing Christians. Look at yourselves all caught up in your habits and trapped in sin. The man will even accuse the doctor/pastor, trying to bring healing to the people, of impropriety. You have sinned blah blah blah.  Why is it that these men who rage this way get applauded? They should be arrested and placed under evaluation to see if the fruit of the Holy Spirit is there. If no evidence of grace is found he should be thrown out anathema.

Superheros Geriatric Ward

The Church is not a Solution to Man's Problem
My Pastor Chuck Smith always sees the Church is a hospital. Even those serving are affected by the sickness of self-centeredness, lust, pride, disobedience, and what ever else you can add. He has such a big heart if a Pastor or sheep gets infected and stumbles he'll stand them on their feet again. If we see the church as the solution to humanities problem we will like the man above become disillusioned and angered. We will want to scream at the situations of family and friends getting ripped off by satan and say, "You're getting what you deserve." The Church is a problem but it's not yours and not mine. The Church is where Jesus Christ does his best work. The World is the boat sinking. If we stay in the boat our fate will be the same as the others. If we leap by faith to the rescue ship of Jesus we will be saved. Yet when you get there you are one of the refugees on your way to the kingdom of heaven.

Hospital Workers:
The problem of working in a hospital is sooner or later it gets to you. The constant on going river of humanity and the continually blood letting of Jesus to cover their sin. So sometimes the staff can become cold or calloused. They are numb to the emotions of the patient. Doctors can walk in a rudely just blurt out a remedy and never touch the patient. If a staff member gets infected and stumbles then this causes a panic. This panic leads to germaphobia. If a doctor or nurse get this it goes against their oath to help the sick. In the church, the pastor can get a type of problem-a-phobia, We get sick and tired of hearing about sin in someones life reoccurring. Usually, the infected pastors have verses down pat. They are not moved by the Holy Spirit but by the experience of time. They can diagnose a problem and prescribe 1 Corinthians 10:13, I John 1:9, and a little John 10:10 for pain relieving. They are numb to the emotions and even the outcome. "It's on you buddy" seems to be the sentiment. I like Jesus' painting of Israel, as a bunch of baby chicks and he was the mother hen. He so wants to brood over them and protect them. I see the church too is likewise a deep grievous concern of his. In Revelation, he calls the churches to repent. He doesn't sound angry but matter of fact he states the consequence of sin yet it is his loving grace he is waiting for repentance. Pastors need to understand the firmness of Jesus yet his passion to be in fellowship with the patient.

No Pat Answers: If this = not that
Somehow the Biblical educational institutions of seminaries have painted after years of research, and study, and models, a picture of the perfect church. If you do this then this. It seems too simplistic. Humanity or the Holy Spirit is not the factor for new church planting methodology, but the conditions of a B.F. Skinner model to create the environment where the Christian specimen will be most accommodated. The coffee shop is the most important condition often taking precedence over the Bible. The music must be just right not too sleepy not too rap and not to alternative. The whole plan is a set up for absolute failure in my eyes. It is like creating a spiritual opium factory. You get people hooked on church you get them loving their church you get them dependent to get in church at least once a week. You coffee them up you rock em out you punch em in the arm and say be warm and filled brother. No brokenness for the lost. No weeping for sin but just that feel good sensation that black stormy skies are blue and lemons are roses. That is the church of Satan in my eyes. Now let me step back and say there are churches where the Bible is taught mightily and yet it is okay to have a coffee shop with great lattes. I am just trying to communicate how we have as a body decapitated ourselves from Jesus as the head of our churches and are content to live in a vegetative state of mind with so called experts calling the shots for the direction of the churches. The business men are more interested in numbers and results than repentance and contrition. The specimens become victims and as an addict say, "I'm okay, really,  I'm connected to the church and Pastor X." I pray people in my church don't get dependent like that. I am the one that wants to turn humanity on to Jesus. Our head is Jesus Christ. We are to be healed and directed and ministered to by Jesus. We shouldn't come into church each week all messed up and needing blessings and fillings and repenting. If you are in leadership or a teaching position at your church we should do that at home first before and then be in a better position to help those in need or share with the unsaved.
Conclusion
So the church is a hospital and we who minister to the sick are often the sick ourselves. The church is one amazing institution where the Doctor can do surgery and then take off his gear and get on the table and have others do surgery on him. If one feels he has arrived at perfection he is not looking at Jesus. You can look at others and be better than them that is for sure. But when you look at Jesus he is our standard and we need to continually press on for the higher call. We need to run the race. We need to stay the course. There is no hanging up, no sitting this one out, no docking the boat. Phil; 3:20-21 "For our conversation is in heaven; from whence also we look for the Saviour, the Lord Jesus Christ: Who shall change our vile body, that it may be fashioned like unto his glorious body, according to the working whereby he is able even to subdue all things unto himself."


I pray that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give unto you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of him: The eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that ye may know what is the hope of his calling, and what the riches of the glory of his inheritance in the saints, And what [is] the exceeding greatness of his power to us-ward who believe, according to the working of his mighty power, Which he wrought in Christ, when he raised him from the dead, and set [him] at his own right hand in the heavenly [places] Amen Ephesians 1:17-20

Dan's snack

I know some of you are wonder what do I eat? I thought I'd share one of my snacks with you.

 Jalapeño Cheese Toast

This one is my Jalapeno Cheese Toast. I usually eat a 300 to 400 calorie breakfast. So around 10am I get famished. I usually reach for my low calorie low salt Polish Pickles but I get tired of that or sometimes I enjoy whole lemons. If you take 20 minutes to suck on lemon slices and eat the flesh they can be very satisfying.

Lately, we found at one of our foreign food stores a jar of sliced Jalapeno peppers. So I make this under 200 calorie snack with a piece of toast a slice of cheese and I top it with bell peppers and Jalapeno peppers. Then I toast it a second time melting the cheese. Oh it is so yummy. I almost ate this one before I had the thought to share it with you all.

Cheese I use is a Japanese torokeru or processed cheese... it is 58 calories a slice.
Bread White: 122 Calories a slice
Jalapeño's 27 calories. (although I am using only a table spoon say 1/2) so 14 cal
Bell peppers 30 calories also only a table spoon of one so 15 calories.


  58
122
  14
+15 
199


There are those times when I get the bug and just stand for 5 minutes in front of the fridge. I don't know what I want or am looking for but it is a habit. So to guard against eating harmful or it could be healthy but high calorie I like to have ammunition available in the form of pre-cut items. I take a whole Yellow Bell Pepper and a whole Red Bell Pepper and dice them up and save them in tuperware in the fridge. I'll cut up a whole head of lettuce ready for an instant salad. Our bodies need to burn fuel but do we get the cheap fattening stuff? Like gassing up your car at a generic no name gas station that makes your car engine knock. The same for our bodies. If we can eat satisfying efficiently burning fuels our bodies will do better. If we load it down with additives and salt we will feel bad and in many cases feel the need to eat more because of the deficiency in our body. Sometimes I wish our bodies had a pop up computer screen that could tell us what our body exactly needs. Body is deficient in potassium so eat a 1/2 a banana. But instead I used to reach for Pringles and diet soda. Hope you all enjoy the Jalapeño Cheese Toast and eat well so that we can serve well.

Why is that?

    WHY IS THAT?

I expected a repair on our Nissan headlight to be a couple of hundred dollars it was 2000 yen (or $24.00). Why is that?

You make a plan to go to a nice restaurant and get all ready and make the trip only to find out it is closed that day. Why is that?

Amazon is known in Japan for shipping things real fast within two days most of the time. The one time you needed it fast it comes in five days. Why is that?

You know how somethings are so odd they can make you wonder why is that?

So many times what we have expected is just the opposite. Whether it is that Murphy's law or just coincidence everyone has times that what they have expected didn't happen. Or something happened that they didn't plan on. I often wonder about things like when the Wise Kings of the East took all that time to come and worship this great king who had his own star, expecting palatial royalties only to find humble accommodations. Still they rejoiced.


Paul standing on the temple steps finally able to give his grand testimony only to have them riot and he gets beaten and thrown in jail. He must have wondered what is going on? This isn't what I planned. God may have shown him the things he must suffer but it appears he had the expectation of a different result.


Jonah sitting on that hill giggling to himself…"Hee Hee Hee, any minute now the fire of God is going to wipe out the Ninevehites. I had better get my marshmallows out." Only to find they don't get wiped out but they repent and turn to God. What? Jo was fuming mad. He was mad at God why? Because he did what he expected which he hoped wouldn't happen. When it did he has that "I knew it." My mortal enemy is saved by my preaching just great he wanted them dead.

So for the Bolinger's on the mission field our coming over here we expected it to not be easy, we'd within a few years plant a church and originally go back home after two years or so. We are passing the or so point and in July we will be going into our 5th year here. Medically, I Dan feel like I am not doing that great. The Doctor says, "Man you're doing great." Mihoko says, "Wow honey you're doing great." I am getting better. I sure don't feel like it. We came to the mission field expecting God to do great things. I didn't expect that would include a sickness.

What's Next:  As Mihoko and I have prayed we have never been ones to sit back to listen to secular common sense. So we are praying forward for a venture of faith. The English school is continuing.  The Church is continuing and people do come wow. God brought us here to do a work to glorify him. How can we not expect God to bless another venture of faith? Pray for us in this venture. We are going to Lord willing rent a facility. This process can take up to a month or more. We will let you know when we know.

It's really funny that as my health goes south, we turn around and press forward with a venture of faith. People expect us to throw in the towel and go back to California. We are committed to the cause of Christ. My limitations are not totally debilitating. I find courage in some people in the field where one husband had a severe stroke and they continue on with the wife fulfilling the call God has put on their lives. Or like another family I know, the dad died and the family remained on the field committed to the mission. The kids all have gone into missions and carry on their Fathers work. We take courage and will continue.

It is so typical of humanity, we expect one thing and they do the opposite. Why is that? Just when we think God is bringing the curtain down on our ministry he opens a wide door. Why is that? God is good,

Eternal Peace or Piece

Jesus said "peace peace everywhere peace. Then the end will come" well here in our town the city hall has declared eternal peace. Knowing Biblical prophecy gives you insight that people can declare anything they want but it is just empty words. Japan is changing. People like the rest of the world are without peace in their soul. There is a restlessness in the hearts of people they want a change but don't know what or how. They can chant all they want "Peace, Peace, Peace.". But they still inside are wrestling a. The Bible says one day that the world will declare a false peace. Then the end wil come. There is no peace why? Because a war is raging from the beginning of time. Mankind is at war with his maker we are all tired of fighting we see the lifestyles of our predecessors and they are all wounded and damaged. The scars run long and deep. Yes we are tired of fighting. There are two ways to win a fight. One beat your opponent or Two give up. Now fighting against God just isn't a fight you can win. I suggest you give up and repent of your sinful self-centered life. Ask Jesus to come in and direct your life. All your dreams all you ambitions all your fighting with family friends and coworkers let it all go and give up. Jesus says to you come unto me all you who are heavy laden and I will give you rest. Jesus gives you peace not as the world gives but a peace that passes understanding The world can't know peace because it doesn't know Jesus. But you can know Jesus simply by bowing your head and pray, "Jesus, I give up. I lay down my life and all throw down my weapons and surrender to you. Forgive me Lord. Come into my life and fill me with your peace. When you do you will discover what others have. God was not mad at you and loves you very much. He didn't want to fight against you that is why he sent Jesus to die in our place to pay our crime debt and give us peace with God. Not just a declared piece, but a true peace that will truly be eternal

Slamming Doors

And while they went to buy, the bridegroom came; 
and they that were ready went in with him to the marriage: and the door was shut. Matthew 25:10

Incident: Laying in bed warm it is 6am and the rumblings of family indicate the day is getting started. There is a door that separates two areas of our Apartment. It has a bent hinge causing it to just barely bump the doorjamb. I have warned the kids many times to not slam the door. Before we moved into this Apt two years ago on our first day looking at the place the wind slammed the door twice which yielded two neighbors to come over and scold us for being Urusai (Noisy). So with this fear constantly in our head I tell the kids don't slam the door. This one morning though there was an unusual amount of slamming. There was loud voices and slamming. When someone has a heart problem the last thing you want to do is startle them and cause heart trauma. As I lay in this warm bed fading in and out of consciousness I am startled awake, SLAM, "Oh those kids." roll over close eyes again. SLAM, "I wish they wouldn't slam the door. SLAM (I have 3 kids) We are going to get in trouble by the neighbors. SLAM (the wife?) Being startled 4 times was all my heart could take anger was the emotion of the day. I shot out of bed opened my bedroom door. I inhale to blast them with both barrels of my teaching on why we should not slam doors. When all of a sudden everything goes blank. The reboot happens while I'm on the floor. My eyes open, I'm hearing my panicked wife calling my name, my oldest son is calling my name they are putting hands on me trying to find out what just happened. My Son was fearful I had just entered eternity. In 10 seconds I stand up say, "Please stop slamming the door." Then I returned to bed for about 20 minutes. This is part of the heart problem now. As the heart is unable to pump normal when an event that causes me to move fast or say I eat a meal and stand up too quickly I get dizzy. That morning with anger being in the mix caused a crumpling to the floor. It was quite humbling. I now have to be careful of really managing my emotions. I have to choose my battles based on how much energy do I have for this. Which has been quite nice as I not having energy usually just walk away and don't say a word. The kids know and are helping to do their part. I must say this our home has been so much more peaceful now. All but the slamming of the door.

I'm working on a new one be patient

Hey gang,
I have been working on many writings simultaneously and none of them are any good. When I get something worth writing or reading I'll post soon. Enjoy the peace of nothing to read. Maybe I'll write about nothing. Like Seinfelds show that was about nothing.

100 pounds part 2: Things that weigh 100 pounds stolen from other blogs

In celebration of my recent loosing of 100 pounds I wanted to see what on Earth also weighed 100 pounds. So here goes. And to give credit where credit is due. I have appropriated these picts from other sights except those that resemble me.

Me at 225 pounds or 102 kilograms

Me at 325 pounds or 148 kilograms

100 pound black lab

100 Pounds of Dumbells and I stress dumb

100 pound foal/ baby horse for those who don't know what a foal is.

Newborn baby hippo

100 pound prize winning pumpkin

100 pounds of marlin this may actually be like 300 to 400 pounds but it was a cool picture.

100 pounds of Tuna ooo Sushi...someone get the soy sauce.

My beautiful 10 year old daughter Rachel with her uniform and school backpack weights 100 pounds.

Wow wow wow I just can't believe I carried all that weight around with me. Talk about a major wake up call for me. Praise God!

I was that fat with me filling in those 44 size pants. Anyone want a slightly used pair of size 44/30 jeans?

My daughter Jane was having fun with my old pants. She stood in one leg and then lifted the other leg up over her head.

My bug Jane is now a worm or some other thing. Now its time for tickle torture. Hahahahaha